That Was My Normal

Updated: Jun 3, 2020


When I used to drink two bottles of wine a night in order to relax, that was my normal.


When I used to smoke 60 cigarettes a day, mindlessly burning the money I had away, that was my normal.


When I used to cry myself to sleep from the pain of my obese thighs having rubbed themselves raw and the hatred of my body, that was my normal.


When I used to cry myself awake because I wished I had died in my sleep, that was my normal.


When I used to take a couple of pills and a gram of coke to keep me going on a night out, that was my normal.


When I used to wake and bake before going to work so that I could deal with my existence of being in an environment that was killing my soul, that was my normal.

When I used to believe I was a useless fat c*** because the narcissist I married told me so every day, that was my normal


When I used to allow self-sabotaging negative shit to play around in my head, even after I had conquered all of the above, that was my normal.


And then I made the choice to FUCK THAT SHIT, because ‘my normal’ was obviously not serving my soul one damn bit.


My rebirth happened through real-eyes-ing and re-cognise-ing that I had been existing through the shadow filter of real lies.


The real lies of the catholic church I grew up in that told me I was born sinful when I was at my most pure.


The real lies of governmental brainwashing that told me it was my authority when it is my inner authority that is my birthright.


The real lies of the media I chose to have a career in that masquerades as a source of information when it peddles corporatocracy propaganda.


The real lies of the pHARMAceutical industry that kept me chronically dis-eased for decades before I re-cognised my body came here equipped with the tremendous ability to heal itself with intention.


The real lies of the food industry that hypnotises us into believing toxic shit is healthy when they know it’s not.


The real lies of…. I could go on and on and on and on and on and on and on and fucking on.


So what real lies are you accepting as normal, especially now as the wizard behind the curtain is feeding the illusion of 'the new normal'. More real lies.


When will you real-eyes?


#fearistherealvirus

#loveyourselffirst


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